I am trying to be more positive...just not today I guess. Sorry.
I should be doing better keeping up this blog, it is supposed to help, maybe me maybe you...who knows. Not having enough Time is shite, Cos I know damn well there are times when I sit doing nothing, Psychomania, Depression, PTSD, whatthehellever.
What's going through my head? What isn't? I'm playing a waiting game with all things military right now, so no Change with that. I am just trying to have the best possible Time I can with the Family. Extended and local, or whatever. The only thing that remains missing is big sister, so nothing new there.
Funny, both things Hurt, but in different ways. I don't cry when I think about how long the military, I don't lose my breath, want to scream, and drop to my knees ask whatever God that'll answer to.
I love my Family can't think of much that is as important, and I die a little bit inside when I know my daughter is not only Hellbent on hurting me but on hurting her Family as well. I don't know what exactly it is that I have done, but I am pretty damn sure her grandparents, uncles, aunts, cousins, etc never did a damn thing.
I should erase all this and not bother anyone, but if i don't get it out..
.
What's going through my head? What isn't? I'm playing a waiting game with all things military right now, so no Change with that. I am just trying to have the best possible Time I can with the Family. Extended and local, or whatever. The only thing that remains missing is big sister, so nothing new there.
Funny, both things Hurt, but in different ways. I don't cry when I think about how long the military, I don't lose my breath, want to scream, and drop to my knees ask whatever God that'll answer to.
I love my Family can't think of much that is as important, and I die a little bit inside when I know my daughter is not only Hellbent on hurting me but on hurting her Family as well. I don't know what exactly it is that I have done, but I am pretty damn sure her grandparents, uncles, aunts, cousins, etc never did a damn thing.
I should erase all this and not bother anyone, but if i don't get it out..
.
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